Doors

This is my sixth day home in Pennsylvania. Things are not the way I expected, but still good. I found out on Monday that the House of Prayer internship I was planning on doing is being postponed until January due to a lack of interest. That was a shocking blow at first. What does one do when you think you hear from God something specific, and then the door shuts abruptly? I'm learning that you keep going the way you were before, choosing not to lean on your own understanding of what's going on, but trusting God for everything. Now, I'm feeling the pressure to find a job so that I feel like I have some purpose here. But, until that happens, I'll just focus on what God has blessed me with for this season; lots and lots of time with my nephews :)

New!

This past week or so has been full of new things and new life. I love it! On Saturday I graduated from BCOM, officially ending one season and preparing for a fresh start in Pennsylvania.

Then, on Sunday my very close friends McKenzie and Jeff got married finally! It was a beautiful wedding and I'm so thankful I got to be apart of it!

Also, on August 10th little Selah Marcellus was born to two other very close friends. I'm currently in Green Bay Wisconsin to visit the new parents and their bundle of joy. It's been so relaxing and fun to be here!

And last, but certainly not least, on Monday I started dating one of my best friends in the whole wide world, Jacob Paurus. We've been through Teen Mania, Bethany, and Austria together and now look forward to see what God has next. He's so special to me and to say that I'm excited would be an understatement.

Palpable

This summer I have experienced the palpable presence of God unlike I ever have before. Not necessarily some huge display, but my heart still knows the difference. I was becoming so accustomed to my relationship with God being more often a struggle and less often a quiet and confident trust. Things have changed, and I like it that way. I'm beginning to really look forward to what God has next. Who knows!?!

Tomorrow is my last day of class and practical training here at Bethany College of Missions. On Sunday the seniors leave for a short grad-retreat before we pack up our belongings and prepare to head out. Next Saturday we graduate, Sunday I'm a bridesmaid, Monday I'm an adventurer, and Tuesday I'm traveling to Green Bay Wisconsin to visit some wonderful friends who will soon be parents. Friday, August 20th, I return to Pennsylvania completely unsure of when I'll be leaving again. This is a strange season indeed.

Just one step at a time...